Transformational learning ...... whoa!!

I am listening to Eckhart Tolle's Stillness Speaks on audio. I picked this up at the library, which has been such a great blessing to me. I love books ..... I love them all around me, everywhere. But this one is audio and because I am an auditory learner, I find words to hear by engaging for me. There is a line in this audio CD he says that catches my attention: "Ultimately there is no other and you are always meeting yourself." Okay ..... so my reflection is myself. This is not the first time I have read or heard this truthful sentence. This stops me in my tracks because I, my ego, loves to look "out there" for something/someone to repel. To continue the trail of looking for and following "stories" is often my favorite pastime and activity! I really feel uncomfortable acknowledging this .... it is quite embarrassing to reveal this about myself, but what the heck ...... I need to say it.I am working towards writing a short story/memoir and so I am involved rather deeply in the excavation of my own family history. I can get pretty wrapped up in all the stories of my life course and although the story or stories might have a place at my dinner table, they are not the only meal. I work diligently now when I write or tell my stories to allow myself the time and space to answer the following question when I have revealed enough. This question is: What is it I am learning from this person and/or situation? This is the "happy ending" I want to achieve for my memoir: transformational learning. This is the real deal baby! This is the gift .... the main course of  the meal, any meal. So go ahead, taste and savor the story. Let the senses come alive with both delight and sadness. And remember to digest, assimilate and accept the lessons, the learnings that are yours for the honest effort and vulnerability you have committed to yourself.

Bon appetit!

Stephanie

Snags and musings .....

"Realize how many gifts and potentials you have - in your self, in your family, in your society, in this world. Cultivate the eyes to see yourself as you are, not the way you've been told you are." Pandit Rajmani Tigunait

I am writing a short story/memoir with the theme of reclaiming, healing mother-daughter relationships. Okay, my own, however in talking with and observing other women and their mother - daughter relationships, I do believe we all share a common thread of desire, hope and faith. For me,it is the desire to know my feminine lineage, to give honour to the incredibly elusive relationship that ties and bonds us all so deeply.. It is the hope that I hear and listen to who our mothers and grandmothers really are or were and it is the faith to know I must do this: heal a severed bond that I and my world so feverishly sliced away. 

Today I am spending time, once again, writing my story and I am in a snag, so therefore I will become the muse! This blog simply lets me wander,like my morning journaling practice however this is different. Somehow this electronic, cyberspace machine is moving me forward. Okay time to go back to my writing. Stop procrastinating Stephanie and get going .... so restless, so distracted! (Is this my voice, or my mother's ......?)

Muse-fully yours,

Stephanie